Heterosexual Sex

Wow! I Should be asleep (or at least be replying to a important email to Baz - Sorry Baz!) But I was thinking about my sexual experiences today and I thought I should share.

So I've had what the straight people call 'sex' before. It was a defining moment in my life and a kinda embarrassing story. Here goes.

So I met this girl through a mutual friend one night lets call her Betty-Sue (BS for short). Betty-Sue is a friend of a friend and we met while bar hopping in Brisbanes nightclubs. We got talking and several vodka redbulls later there was some grinding on the dance floor happening and a bit of eye contact going on (I was freaking out that I might actually seduce a girl). This girl seems really nice and pretty but kinda clingy and definately horny. We end up having a kiss on the dance floor (eww girl germs). So anyway she was staying with her friends place for the night and I was staying at my place and we didnt really take anything further that night. I was still questioning myself at the time. I was asking myself questions like 'can I just stick it in and I will be fine?' or 'I kinda like guys but for the moment can just have sex and forget about these thoughts?'

So the next day she added me on facebook and tags me in various photos where I'm drunk as a skunk. We get talking online and she is totally full on. She wants to go on a date. She thinks I'm great and wants to get together. (Side note: as I'm writing this I'm thinking what the hell was I doing?). So we organise a first date. We spent the afternoon together doing typical first date things and I invited her back to my place for a few drinks my housemates and I were having. Totally bad idea.

Things were kinda awkward on the first date. I mean it wasn't a first date cause I totally got to second with her a few weeks before on a dance floor in public but I really was just freaking out on the inside. She plans to spend the night and I told her to crash in my bed with me. We've been drinking alot and I've built up the courage to go through with this. So we get into bed and I'm fully dressed. I really didnt want anything to happen. Betty-Sue strips off completely naked and tells me to do the same (so much for foreplay). I do as told. So we're kissing and touching and everythings fine. Everything feels good. How far is this gonna go? I don't wanna sleep with BS. Is it too late to ask if we can just be friends? haha.

So I think I said something like 'I don't think we should sleep together tonight'. What kinda straight guy says that? I was trying to buy some time for myself obviously. She is not ok with this and is very persistant. She wants to have sex tonight and she is in control. So I decided I would do this. How bad could it be? We get into position and I'm having trouble figuring out what I should be doing. I've never been paid much attention to any of the females in the porn I've watched. What am I supposed to do? I kinda 'poked' around and found where I was aiming for. Actually I think she helped me with this. We were getting into things and I'm totally disgusted. I do not find BS attractive. It just feels completely wrong

Here comes the incredibly embarrassing part. I went soft on her. Oh dear.

I hate to be a tease but I'm tired. I will finish this as soon as I can.

While I have you attention. Thanks to the new followers! I try to link everyone who follows me so I will try get this done asap.

Also thanks for your feedback about my previous post on 'Questions of Sexuality'. You all had some great advice. All of it was very encouraging so thank you.

Keep it real.

Andrew