Saturday, January 30, 2010

Love love love! I want your love!

So a couple of you have asked for an update on my crush. I've got good and bad news. The overall deal is 'Blah' I don't know what to think or how to feel. See my previous post if you don't know what I'm talking about.

So we were at the local club a week later. All my friends knew I had a thing for him so when he walked over my friends conveniently disappeared and he said to me "They were talking about me weren't they". I grew some balls and replied "its just because I think you're cute" to which he said nothing! From there one of my friends was chatting to him and she asked what his 'type' was and apparently I'm not it. My friend politely broke the news to me with 2 shots of jager ready to go! That night ended with me incredibly drunk and heartbroken. Its funny to say heartbroken when I barely know him but I honestly felt heartbroken. It's fun to have a crush regardless if nothing happens its just fun to have someone you're hoping to run into or someone to look good for :) Maybe I was crushbroken.

From there I was in the 'Fuck him!' stage and was just annoyed. Then a few days later he approaches me at work when he's quite drunk and I'm completely sober and says "Can I have a word with you?". We step over to the side as I mentally prepare myself for a second rejection face to face. He leans in and says "What are you doing later tonight I was hoping we could hang out." If you could see my face it would have had that 'WTF' expression. I was so confused. It sounded like he wanted a one night stand which is not what I'm looking for. I really just want a boyfriend. I told him I was busy but maybe some other time.

I really don't know what to do about this one. I don't think we really 'click' personality wise. I don't know if I'm putting to much pressure on the situation but I just don't have anything to talk to him about. I just don't know what to say when he's around.

Do you guys have any thoughts? Am I going down a dead end road?



Baz said...

love you too.
need to catch up on your earlier posts - might mail you (don't You just love that!)

ps - where's the photos you promised?

Luv, Baz

Aaron said...

hmm, when people are drunk, they do tend to get horny too :P

i think u did quite the right thing - i guess there's nothing you can really do. if u think u can manage to be with him and risk him not loving u at least as much as u love him, then jump in, indulge and just have fun. otherwise, if u cannot handle the hurt, mmm.. i won't go there.. tough huh..

come back to brissie! :P

endim mawess said...

me too, I will kiss my boyfriend now...after I come back. meu namorado adora surpresas.